night owl...

It's 4.45am in the morning and I'm still in the office. On top of that it's a Saturday night. I've finished what I needed to do about an hour ago. However I'm too cheapskate to take a cab home alone so I'm waiting on another colleague to finish up so that we can share the cab. Listening to songs on my laptop whilst surfing around on super fast internet. Too bad nobody to call at this ungodly hour if not that would have been another thing to do. Probably by now most people would be on the way home after a heavy night of partying. On the other hand I'm typing this blog with my brain half-dead and not necessarily looking forward to the 9-5pm CPA workshop I have tomorrow. After that I would be catching Evan Almighty at the cinemas with a group of friends. A relatively nice and relaxing way to enjoy the Sunday except that I'm afraid I might not have the energy to enjoy it. Haha.

I'm so looking forward to moving out of my current place and into my new place on 1st October. It's not just the addition of the aircon but also the much suited (to me) living environment. Living with people with whom you can relate to is much better than living in a somewhat gilded bird cage, whereby it may look cheap and good but it's not all it's hyped up to be. I used to say, Why pay for things which you can get for free? Then I told that to a colleague one day and he replied, But what you get for free may not always be good. You pay peanuts, you get monkeys. Not sure how that's related but it's true. A lot of the times in life, you pay more you get better stuff. It's a luxury not all can afford but if you can then it's better. For example, you buy a Mercedes, it's resale value later on is much higher than let's say a Toyota. No doubt you're paying more for the Merc now but hey it's more comfortable and it'll last you longer. This is of course typical for an accountant to think this way, in terms of depreciation. But like I mentioned before, not everyone can afford a Merc so at some point of time we realise that we have to live within our means. What you're willing to pay and what you'll get for it. Despite this I think we should all try to live life to the max. Push ourselves harder and farther. Work hard and play hard. Try things we've never tried before, do things we've never done before and go where we've never been before. Life outside our comfort zone. C'est la vie...

Man's best friend

May I introduce to man's best friend. For a small price only, it gets you well and high. And for this special offer only, the time you spend having it, all your problems will slowly ebb away into the night. Why does fate tempt me yet leave me empty? The emptiness I feel inside is echoing away into my heart and reverberating into more emptiness. I feel so alive at times yet at times I feel as if I'm nothing. NOTHING!!! Sometimes I feel we're just merely toys of God, him fooling around with us as He wish. Just like Sim City. We're just being fucked around like mere mortals in Sim City sending us quakes, hurricanes, typhoons, tsunamis and what have you. And on a smaller scale, we get dealt shitty cards in life. It's a lousy hand in poker and unfortunately this streak of lousy hands doesn't end.

On another note, a game of bridge is like sex, if you haven't got a good partner, just hope that you've got a good hand.

Well boys and girls as life and fate is screwing with us, the only and best way to escape all this bullshit is through our dear best friend above and only for RM10 for 3 cans, it's a fucking steal. Get it while it lasts because the damn 'gahmen' is going to increase the sin tax....

Assumption

I assume a lot of things. Not because I'm too lazy to think about something, therefore I assume but rather because I've thought a lot about it and therefore have come to a reasonable conclusion/assumption. There is no concrete evidence but the circumstances surrounding it becomes, not obvious but just plainly pointing to one conclusion. Oh well we'll just have to see whether my assumption is true or not... A very tiring Friday night/Saturday morning post@2am. Have to wake up early to play football at 10am tomorrow some more. Oh well living life on adrenaline is fun.

What's wrong with me?

*A write-up of my recent unit trip to Tioman can be read at Tioman unit trip*


What's wrong with me nowadays?
Some days I feel so moody
Some days I feel so cranky
Yet some days I feel totally fine and on top of the world
And it's not just limited to days
It could just be a matter of a few hours

There's a change going on inside of me
Yet I do not know what's going on
I just feel that somehow I'm different
For better or for worse, I must accept
the change going on inside of me
And learn to deal and cope with it
To make me a stronger and better person

Some days I feel that the burden of the world
is on my shoulders
Some days I feel so carefree and uninhibited
When the tide of darkness rolls in
I feel that I'm a more sinister person
Even the nicest of person that cross my path
Can expect to suffer the wrath of my vileness

On nicer days even my most hated ones
Can expect a nice nod and an odd smile from me
What's wrong with me?
Does it have to do with my new job or new country?
Or is it just the new people I'm meeting everyday?
Sometimes I feel so alone and cold
Even though I'm surrounded by 4million souls
On this cramped island of which I call home for now

I need something to distract me
Something to put me back on the right path again
To mend the brokenness I feel inside
What is that something I wonder & ponder?
What is the release that shall set me free
Or to cure me of my dilemma, problems and disrepair?
These thoughts shall fill my head time and time again
As I every waking day passes
And every night before I depart to bed
As these private thoughts lull me into my slumber...


*these words were penned when completely sober*

NOTICE

Companies don't need any physical fitness programs.

Everyone gets enough exercise jumping to conclusions, flying off the handle, running down the boss, knifing friends in the back, dodging responsibility and pushing their luck.

Enjoy your day @ work...

life...

It's funny how life changes when you're working. When you're studying you're exposed more or less to the people who are around your age and that's all good and fine because their wavelength is more or less similar to yours. However when you work, you're exposed to people of all different ages, races, religions and etc. You get the idea. Hence your perspective totally changes and not only that, you probably change too. In that way, whether you want it or not, your maturity level sorts of increase as well. And that sort of sucks because part of you still wants to be young and fool around and not be prim and proper. On the other hand, being working and seeing more 'things' so to speak, you want to explore more 'adult' stuff and maybe/probably/possibly leave a part of your non-working past behind and move onto your new life with your job and your pay and the endless possibilities you can do with it. For some, the feelings may not be as extreme, as they might not have moved to a new place to work as I have, but some similar feelings of that sort might still be present. It is really a mixed feelings of sort and learning how to deal with it and sort it out will eventually help you manage you life more productively and effectively. Oh well can't wait for my first pay to come, then I can start planning how to use it ;)

platonic relationships...

it's funny how people who are considered adult working professional still have a very prudish view of relationships between two people of the opposite sex. in this day and age you would even more so expect people to think that it's perfectly normal for two people of the opp sex to be able to hang out with each other without any other agenda other than being just friends. however this is not the case. like if a guy & a girl were to go out for lunch or dinner or just to hang out to go to the movies or chill out in a cafe or just to go shopping together, people would automatically assume there's something more going on. oh come on, we live in the 21st century where the notion of gender equality and feminism is so much widely accepted in the developed nations that people can just be friends without anything more than that. like if a two people of the same sex were to go out and do those things mentioned together it would perfectly alright yet if two people of the opposite sex were to do the same, a different thought would automatically pop into people's minds. like talk about double standards. i mean what i say may or may not be true but whatever i say now might not make a difference to the world but this is just me putting my 2 cents worth into the issue and hopefully it might be worth more than that, 2 cents that is...