the fight begins...

Just had my first limteh session without smoking. Omg it was pure torture. Could smell the smoke, could see people smoking and could see the ashtray on the table. The feeling was horrible. My body felt weak and the nausea kicked in. Whenever I can smell the 2nd hand smoke from others it felt strangely good as if I was missing out on something. The agitation and the slight shaking of the limbs came later. I was really in pain. I felt as if I needed to punch
something/someone to let it all out. I was in need now more than ever and there was nothing/no-one to satisfy that need. it all ends with my favorite words, fuck fuck fuck...