I'm back in Singapore. somehow I feel glad/happy to be back here. I feel that my life is here now. When I'm back in Brunei, I felt lost, as if I had nothing to do. Though I'm very happy just to spend time with my family. That time spent is always well appreciated. Brunei is a boring place, a place where just spending time there will dull the mind and in many cases have blunt the wits' of many of its occupants. They're just obsessed with mindless materialism without a thought for greater things/purpose in life. A good example of that would be the mindless rounds that cars filled with an obscene amount of decibels make their way round and round shopping centres and cafes just blasting their 'noise' with no aim other than to show-off how hard their electrified magnets can vibrate. And when they have enough of making their rounds, they park together and continue their mindless vibrations. I can just go on and on about how sad life is there but I'm just glad my brothers have all left the nest and move on to possibly better things. And I can breathe a sigh of relief when my parents finally make their migration home. Time to start revving up the brain for work tomorrow. Time to continue the Walk. God bless.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Whether we like it or not, change is a constant in our lives. One of the changes I've noticed in myself is that I've quit smoking and reduced my drinking. I didn't really know what brought about these changes at first but when I thought about it (as I usually do, curse or blessing I dunno), I came up with the conclusion that it was brought about by my acceptance of Jesus as my Lord and Saviour.
Simple really. I only smoked and drank because I was trying to forgot/drown out my problems, my pains, my burdens, my troubles. Now that I have Him I no longer need to rely on those things, though it's a chain effect in a way, one change affecting another change. All for the better. Now that I've managed to come out of my old shell, I need to learn to take charge of this metamorphosis so that the Journey will be a carefully planned and fruitful one. For a journey without a plan is almost inevitably doom to failure.
Even in our plan to succeed, we must also plan for failure because our plans may not be His plans for us and He will reveal His plan for us in due time, in His time, not ours. Learning to comprehend and accept all these has allowed me to slowly and surely move on in a more positive direction. About initiating change and coming out of my comfort zone to do more positive things with my life and to grow in Him and serve Him with all my heart and mind. And as I reflect on these changes happening in my life, I'm beginning to like what I see. The better half of me being revealed in His glory. Oh well, the story is just in its infancy. Time will only reveal where this Journey will lead me once again. Will the tides of change lead me to foreign lands or foreign worlds? Go figure...
*p.s. Happy Lunar New Year to all and wishing you all a blessed time of celebration with family and friends. God bless*
Thoughts by Melvin at 12:25 AM
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
You feel shy whenever they're around.
You smile when you hear their voice.
When you look at them, you can't see
the other people around you, you just
They're all you think about.
You realize you're always smiling when
you're looking at them, even if its
only their pictures.
You would do anything for them, just
to see them.
While reading this, there was one
person on your mind this whole time.
You were so busy thinking about that
person, you didn't notice number seven
You just scrolled up to check & are
now silently laughing at yourself.
Thoughts by Melvin at 2:38 AM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Babyface - Every Time I Close My Eyes Lyrics
Girl, it's been a long, long time comin'
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up
its gates for me and you
1-And every time I close my eyes
I thank the Lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause I don't believe it's true
That someone like you loves me too, yeah
Girl, I think that you're truly somethin'
Yes, you are, and you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby, it never rains and it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you
To think of all the nights I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughta know how much you mean to me
It's only right that you be in my life
Right here with me, oh baby, baby
Thoughts by Melvin at 6:28 PM
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Ever since I was a child, I always had deep thoughts, thoughts which scare me even to this day. One recurring thought that I always had was about death. I think it's a question we all ponder at one point of our lives or another. The question is: Where do we go after death? The ever impending-yet-unsatisfactorily answered question. Yes, we all know that your body die and decompose but what happens to the soul/spirit? Where does this person with this personality go? Does it just disappear? So what's the point of living? We might as well just die. It's this fearful thought that keeps me awake on some nights and create this cold, dark depressing fear that envelops you from within. It's not a nice feeling.
Last week as I was watching a movie on my laptop, 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer, and suddenly I just felt that cold dark fear from within me. I felt cold and weak all of a sudden and more so fearful, a deep-penetrating fear. I felt truly scared at that point of time and I just closed my laptop and said a prayer to God and asked Him for strength and an answer. I opened the Bible and I was given the answer in Mark 14-15. Despite this fear I have of death, I think I have salvation in the form of Jesus dying for us on the cross and saving us all. It's a simple answer yet it strikes at the heart of the fear. Yes we are humans and we have fears and emotions but we should all look to God and thank Him for sending us His Son to save our souls. Amen. AMEN!
Thoughts by Melvin at 11:26 PM
Monday, December 17, 2007
Today was Sunday and I went to church to listen to what good news God had for me today. The title of today’s sermon was ‘Little is much when God is in it’. It’s such a simple message yet so powerful at the same time. Such is the power of God’s words. The main verse for the sermon was John 6 : 1-15 which is basically about the feeding of 5000 men by Jesus with five loaves and two fishes, given by an unnamed boy. I think part of the reason why this boy is unnamed is because this boy represents who we potentially can be, as opposed to who we are now, like Philip and Andrew.
Little is much when God is in it. It reminds us again of how little we have, something we’re all so aware of but time and time again we seek to get more but not through God but through our own mortal means. It goes back to why probably many ‘successful’ men can have so much in their lives yet at the same time feels so empty, because the thing that they should be seeking is God. This reminds me of the pondering from Day 12 (Fri, 14th Dec) of the AG4 21-Day Fasting & Praying Guide.
“The world honors those who are intelligent, beautiful, rich and powerful. Yet many a time, in the kingdom of God, God does otherwise to use the foolish and shame the wise, simple because He sees the hearts.”
He sees the heart. We may have little but when we give what little we have and give thanks to Him, we shall reap in abundance. Pastor Jeff was saying that we will ALWAYS have problems. There will be problems to which we have limited resources to solve and problems that have overwhelming needs, but these circumstances are understandable, for we have little and there is always a problem beyond us BUT not beyond God. So we should learn to look to Jesus instead to solve us problems just like how we went to Him for Salvation. James 1:5 states that “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” He will provide when we ask. He will provide with what we need, not what we want.
I think as Christmas approaches, we should all renew our faith and offer to Him what little we have and give thanks for that little we have. Amen. Amen...
The service ended of with a POWERFUL rendition of Corrinne May’s Five Loaves And Two Fishes. And by powerful I don’t just mean the voice of the singer, but I also felt the power of God speaking through those words, to my heart, and probably to many more too. There was probably a good reason why they dimmed the lights for the song. Pure beauty, pure joy… What an ending befitting of God’s awesome power. Simple yet so powerful.
*you think you've read the story five loaves and two fishes but everytime you read it, there's just so much more to learn from it. Arsenal 1 - 0 Chelsea. Praise the Lord.*